Chains and Restraints

The chains digging
Deeper and deeper
Into my ankles and wrists
Breaking the skin
The restraints are too tight
Let me be who I am
Let me speak my mind
Or let me go
My back is scared
My legs are bruised
What am I
A slave to you
I have my duties
And you have yours
If you cared about me
You would let me live
Say what’s on my mind
And be who I am
The love that you are giving me
Are making the chains
Go deeper and deeper
Into the skin

Day After Day

Full of hate and pain
Sick and tired of going through it
Day after day
I was forced to do things
I never wanted to start
I want to end it
Before I am completely tired out
My wrists are cut
The blood drips down my arm
Numbing the pain that is in my heart
But I can still feel it crack
As it breaks and inch everyday
With nothing to mend it
Or make it go away
My soul is turning into a black pit
But I will keep trying
To get out before
I have to end it

I Am From

I am from the hate of love
My parents broke up before I was one
They fought all night
When hearing me cry

I am from the question why
I grew up confused
Not knowing why
My dad was not there
It just didn’t seem fair

I am from a broken family
With hearts broken
And always feeling lonely

I am from a puzzle
Where you just don’t fit
You try a bunch of times
But it just doesn’t seem to go your way

I am from my parents
They make me want to be a better person
To stop the fighting and the yelling
And just get my life going

Its Life

Things are turning
My life is swirling
My heart is breaking
My family is dieing
When are things going to get better?

I lost their trust
I lied to you for years
I keep lots of secrets
With out a care
When can I trust you?

You yelled at me last night
You broke my heart
You hated my friends
Why do you hurt me?

When are things going to get better?
When can I trust you?
Why do you hut me?
It doesn’t matter

The present is the only thing that matters
The past is gone
The future isn’t here
Leave it alone
Don’t dwell in the past
Or care what is going to happen next
What happens,
Happens for a reason
Live as if you will die tomorrow
Dream as if you will live forever
Tell the ones you love
You love them
And mean it
Before you know it you could be gone
So live life day to day
There are going to be twists
There are going to be turns
But hey what do expect
Its life

Back Stabber

You called me a bitch
You talked behind my back
What did I do to you?
I gave you my opinion
Just giving you the truth
At least I didn’t go behind your back
And back stab you
You gave out my phone number
Just have people call
They called me mean things
Hurting my feelings
I guess you just don’t care
Oh yes I do have feeling
They hurt just like yours
I can be mean
I can be a bitch
But what would you rather me do
Back stab you?
That’s just not my style
Man can’t you get a clue
I am not a back stabber
And never will

New Story Part 1

I was running for my life. It was a cold and dark night. With heavy rain pounding on my body. My heart was racing and I was breathing hard. I don't think I was going to make it I thought to myself. Just keep running just keep running I kept repeating in my thoughts. I fell to the ground with a sharp pain going through my leg. An ear piercing cry came out of my mouth as I fell to the ground. Then I saw the dark figure in the distance. He was holding a gun in his right hand. That's all I could see with the rain still coming down hard. We just stood there staring at each other for a few minuets. There was silence through the alley. All you could here is the pounding of your heart and the rain hitting the concrete. Suddenly the dark figure moved quickly forward. I saw the face for split second and then nothing.
My eyes opened quickly. I was sweating profusely. I grabbed one of my pillows and hugged it tightly not wanting to let go. It had felt so real, but it was just a nightmare, right? I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash off my pale face. I stared into the mirror there was a dark figure of a man in it. I turned around quickly, but nobody was there. I was just seeing things, that's it. Yeah that is real normal Deb I said to myself. I shook it off and went to the kitchen. I opened the refrigerator and took out the lemonade. Just what I need something refreshing to dink then I noticed the clock it was 3am. I have work in the morning I better get to bed. I put the glass in the sink and headed my way up the stairs. I was freaking out then there was a knock at door. I jumped around and screamed at the same time. Looking towards the door I wondered who it was at 3 in the morning.
I opened the door and there was the dark figure again. He came at me running and put his hand around my neck. He held me up against the wall my feet not touching the ground. I felt dizzy I was starting to black out I was gasping for air. My foot must have kicked him because for a slight second I was able to get a deep breath of air and come to. I saw his head it was bald, but there was a tattoo of a snake and sword on it. That is all I could see though since he had me high up against the wall. I tried to kick him again, but I started feeling weak and dozed off. I woke up later with a bright light glaring down on me. My eyes were blurry and it was hard for me to see where I was. Finally after a few second I was able to gather my thought and see where I was.
I was on the floor in my house the door was open and the sun was shining on my face. My head was aching badly. I needed aspirin so I got to the medicine cabinet as quick as I could. I reached for the bottle in the cabinet and took out 3 of the tiny pills. I sat down on the toilet next to it and began to cry. I didn't know why I was crying, but it felt so good to do so. Finally after a half hour later I felt better and was able to think. I looked around and had to think about what had happened last night. Ok so I was strangled and fainted and ended up on the floor I thought to myself. I went to the mirror and saw the huge brusies I had on my neck.

Just Because

I lay here, writing in my journal
Tears streaming down my face
Confused about my fate
You are all that I think about
You are all that I want
I can't tell you
I shouldn't tell you
But I need to
My heart is breaking as we speak
I hear it breaking piece by piece
Tears turn to blood

Tear by tear
Drip by drip
I die slowly inside
Just because I can't tell you
Because I shouldn't tell you
But I need to
I love you

Sad and Lonely

My heart is broken
Sad and lonely
I wish you were here
You were my only
We sat together
During those long nights
We tried to keep it tight
But things broke apart
I guess we had a lack of heart
I loved you a lot
You did not love me back
Was it something that I lacked
Why did you go
You were all that I had
You were all that I ever wanted
So I sit here
Sad and Lonely

Tale of Love

Telling the tale of love
Is not so easy
There are twist and turn
Ups and downs
Quiet time when no one else is around
You fight
You cry
You live through the night
But it is that one true love
That you will fight for
You will do anything to have them back
You crave there kiss
You feel there touch
When they are gone,
There is not an easy path
We all do it the same
Until you find
that one that never leaves you mind
Enjoy lifes heart and mind

Love me or leave me

So this is how it feels
To Have your heart ripped out
You sat there telling me
That you liked me
Just like the others
You say but you lie
You listen but you don’t
Tell me the truth
That is all that I want
Love me or leave me
Those are your choices
So make it quick
Before I make it for you
I am who I am
I like what I like
If you can’t take me for me
That’s fine
But just don’t keep my heart breaking